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Is it really Christmas time???

Hello everyone. I am just sitting here at work waiting for my manager to tell what work to do. I guess there are several pressing items that must be completed today. Note: today is the last working day before practically 95% of the company takes the next week and a half off due to the holidays. Of course these items can't possibly wait until next week, because next week there are several other pressing items that will need to be completed while 95% of the company is not working. My job is not to ask why, it is merely to do what I am told. Kinda sucks. I didn't save any vacation time because I thought I just would get the two days off next week, boy was I wrong. But now I'm glad I didn't save vacation time because I would have to work on those days anyway. Yes, it is annoying when you manager is a work-horse and you are not.

Anyhoo, I'm looking forward to the weekend. Sleeping in, eating tons of food, hanging out with friends and family, opening presents, etc. i should have plenty of time to finally start book 6 of Harry Potter. Something I should have done already but have not because I have been sucked into that new TV game show, Deal or No Deal. I'm not sure why I find myself drawn to these shows. This new one isn't even exciting, no trivia and no challanges, just people picking random numbers in hopes of being offered a lot of money. I find many people are very greedy... Isn't that a deadly sin? People gamble away guaranteed amounts of money (over $100,000) because they want even more. Unfortunately, nobody has been screwed yet, I'm hoping that happens though. It's fun for me to laugh at morons who lose out on a good thing because they want to be greedy. Ha.

Hey, does anybody have any clue what the story is behind serving hard-boiled eggs at a bar? I've searched online with no luck. I ask because I went to a new restaurant in Somerset, Bon Vie, to get a gift card for my boss. They had several racks of hard-boiled eggs sitting on the bar in place of where the bowl of pretzels should be. I did not ask the bartender because I really just forgot to. I was mesmerized by the woman next to me peeling and salting one of the eggs while sipping her Dirty Martini. It is a French-American bistro - anyone have a clue???

Well, I should go. I want to be ready when I find out what work needs to be done so I can do as quickly as possible.

Order of the Phoenix

Alas, I have finished book 5. Soon I will be in the same ranks as all of you that read all 6 books.
The death, although sad and unecessary, was not as dramatic or shocking as I expected. I was happy when the character was first created, but with the lack of creating it as more of a main character, I was never able to grow attached to it. I do wish the character was more profound, at least like McGonngall or Snape. I'm sure, however, that the movie version will have me crying.

Anyway, I should go to sleep now. Good night...or rather good morning since that's when you will most likely be reading this.

Deep Breath

It is now 5:30pm. The presentation is 10:00am tomorrow morning. I have been working on 4 slides since Monday and my manager decides to tell me now that she doesn't like them and wants to change them. Please note: it's not that I worked on them for 3 days and just showed them to her and she didn't like them, no, she has seen them at least 4 times every day and has requested changes every time she saw them! This is my life. I thought I coul;d be anal and annoying about some things, but man, she has got me beat! Good thing I have no life and no plans and can stay here for the next hour while she makes up her mind...

Peek-a-Boo

Hello, I am here and breathing. Just haven't had much to say lately. I have been in my own little world lately. Thanksgiving weekend was nice. Family, food, friends, etc. The usual. Nothing annoying or exciting going on at work, just day-to-day operations. I did go to the bar (Waves) with Sarah last Saturday. It was actually fun - probably because I was drunk and we met up with a group of people; it also helped that I knew the ex was out of town and had no chance of running into him with his new ho (I really shouldn't say that, I don't know her, I'm sure she's nice and smart or whatever even though I don't think she's really that pretty and she's 37 or something old like that...) ANYWAY - Waves was fun until the end of the night when I finally mustered up the courage to talk to this guy I had been staring at all night. I walked up to the bar and started a conversation. He was nice, but claimed he was shy. We talked for a few then he suddenly had to go the to restroom. I knew right then that he had no interest in talking to me. Then the questions started in my head... Could he tell I was a little tipsy and that turned him off? Did he think I was ugly? Was he really just shy? Was he really a jerk with a girlfriend but didn't want to say that? I thought guys were typically impressed with confident women, but I'm starting to think that is an urban myth. Mayeb guys really think girls are desparate when they resort to walking up to guys at the bar. I think it is a sign of weakness; that a girl is "on the hunt" or whatever you want to call it. If that's the case then that is bullshit. Anyway, that kind of bummed me out and I was ready to go home and sleep the rest of the weekend away. I can understand why guys say it's hard to talk to girls because of the fear of rejection. Rejection totally sucks, especially when there really is no reasonable explaination for it. But I do think it is a lot easier for guys to meet girls if they want to. Seems like guys can fall into relationships as easily as they fall out of them. That's just my opinion.

Anyway, I hate traffic and I hate winter.

This weekend we are headed to K-zoo for Gayle's wedding.

I can't wait for the holidays - well, really I can't wait to have the time off work.

Barefoot

I did not get shoes :(

Here's a neat bloggy thing I took from my friend, Jess.



create your own personalized map of the USA

I have visited 24 states or 47% of the United States. You may say I cheated, but I counted states I have just driven through. I really want to visit Washington, Oregon, Colorado, Maine and Massachusetts. Not sure that I have any desired to visit Iowa or Nebraska or any of the state located in the bible belt/corn country...but one never knows where life will take you.

Ho Hum

It is November 28th in Detroit, MI and it is currently 64 degrees outside. It was like 10 degrees on Thanksgiving with a below zero wind chill factor. I will never understand. Like the comic said - only weathermen never get fired for being wrong all the time. Maybe that's what I should go back to school for...

No, really, I reapplied to MSU yesterday. It will be several weeks before I hear anything, I'm sure, but keep your fingers crossed for me. I really need a change. I am stuck in a bad place right now and the only way out is to make a change. Change will not just happen. I need a new place and new routine.

I think I'm going to go to DSW after work. If Jessica was able to find the perfect shoes, hopefully I can too.

The Holidays

My weekend in Buffalo was fun and relaxing. It took about 5 hours to get there because it was snowing most of the way and there were several accidents. But I arrived about 7:00 and we went to dinner at Red Lobster. We went to a 10:30 showing of Harry Potter. I liked the movie but will not comment much for those who have not seen it yet. I will just say I liked the book better (no different than the other 3). On Saturday we tried to sleep in but were up by 10:30. Anna made cappuccinos and we headed to the outlet mall. I got some Christmas shopping done which was a pleasant surprise. I always wait until the last minute but this year I'm half way done already. After shopping, we went to Anna's where we watched the MSU/Penn State football game and last week's episode of Lost. Dinner was at Anchor Bar, home of the original Buffalo Wings. We thought about going out, but after a couple hours of drinking and watching SATC and playing the SATC Trivia Game, we just stayed in. It was fun to just spend time with Anna and Travis (Anna's friend from college who lives in Missouri so we only see him one or two times a year). Sunday we were hungover. I left about 2:00 and was home in a speedy 3 hours and 45 minutes.

Although I'm not a fan of the cold weather or the shopping or the crowds, I am glad it is the holiday season. I'm glad I get days off of work and get to see friends and family that I only see this time of year. I am glad that is it already Monday afternoon and I only have to work two more days this week.

Copycat

You Are a Little Scary

You've got a nice edge to you. Use it.

How Scary Are You?

Nothing Exciting to Report

The comedy club was fun and Jessica's surprise party was a surprise. The weekend was a success. On Saturday I spent time shopping with my mom. I then went to my brother's house where Louie wore himself out chasing and being chased by the kids. I stayed the night at my brother's house since we had to get up early to go to the Lions' game on Sunday with our dad. We were lucky, the Lions actually won so we had a good time. After the football game we ate dinner at my brother's house then I took Louie home so he could immediately crash on the couch. He was so worn out that he practically slept for the next 24 hours.

Monday was work. Sarah and I made chicken burgers and smashed potatoes (thanks to Rachel Ray) for dinner and watched Bewitched and Elf.

Tuesday was work. I stopped for an oil change on my way to dinner at Monterrey's in Royal Oak. I met Barb and Diane (old school, GM Card co-workers) for dinner. I had tacos and fried ice cream (yum). I then went home and watched the end of Biggest Loser and all of Earl. Sarah got home from Panera by 10:00 so we watched SVU together before going to bed (not together).

Today was work (again). I am just waiting until 5:00 so I can leave and go to my nail appointment.

Tomorrow work continues. And Friday I only have a half day because I'm leaving around 12:30 to drive to Buffalo to visit with Anna and our other friend, Travis. We will be going to see Harry Potter at 10:30pm, the rest of the weekend is not planned out yet. I'm looking forward to hanging out with them - if only the drive was a little bit shorter... Anyone want to come with me? :)


Oh, wait, I almost forgot... Panera brought back their German Chocolate Danishes - YAHOO! They are so yummy. Now that is something exciting to report.

Bumpersticker

Although I did not see any "Thug Life" stickers on my way to work, I did see "It's a Child...Not a Choice". Nothing like a good pro-life statement first thing in the morning. Joy.

Anyway, I finished HP 4 last night. Very good; I enjoyed it very much. The death in this book was somewhat predictable and not very "earth shattering" but sad nonetheless. I am ready for book 5 now. I don't know how anyone could read these books then wait a year or more for the next one to come out to find out what happens next. Voldemort is alive... now what!!?!??!?!? Anyway, I went back and watched the third movie just because. I was a little disappointed because there was a lot of detail from the book left out. I understand they can't squeeze all of it into a 2 hour movie, but that only means I'm a little skiddish about seeing #4 when it comes out. Everything in the book is important so I don't know what they could skip to keep within a reasonable timeframe... Guess we'll just have to see.

Outside of work and reading Harry Potter, I haven't done anything this week. I did go to the grocery store and took Louie to Petco for food, but that's not exciting at all. I'm getting a little perturbed with Louie lately. Don't get me wrong, he's still my baby and I love him and wouldn't trade him for the world - but he's almost a year now and we still have some issues with going potty in the house and not lifting his leg therefore peeing on himself almost everytime. We take him out a lot and so I don't understand the need to go in the house. I do get that he might be confused by the litter boxes or the fact that our basement is dirty and smelly and needs major cleaning because of the cats, but is that it; is that the reason for it? Any dog experts out there with advice? We are never gone more than a couple hours and we always take them outside before we leave. I'm so confused. The joys of puppy parenthood. I'm sure you all enjoyed reading about my puppy potty problems. Sorry.

This weekend will be a good one. Comedy Club entertainment and hanging out with friends - who could ask for anything more? See you all tomorrow!

Home Sweet Home

Well, I'm back from my whirlwind trip to Phoenix. And it was just that. I arrived Friday afternoon. My cousin picked me up and we went to grab a bite to eat (Jack in the Box - YUM!!) and then to the grocery store to pick up essentials like alcohol, potato chips and bagels. We then went to his apartment and killed time until it was bar time. We headed to a place called The Lighthouse. It was OK, but it had no atmosphere. When we arrived it was Karaoke time. I hate Karaoke. Not just because I am a horrible singer and refuse to do it myself, but because everyone else (well, 6 out of 7) is horrible and should be shot for picking up the microphone. I do not find tone-deaf, drunk people muttering into a loud speaker very enjoyable. Anyway... after a while the other side of the bar became club-like. Playing some hip-hop/dance music. I suddenly felt like I was at Waves (minus the atmosphere). We stayed until close and surprisingly after 5 Yager bombs I wasn't tipsy at all.

Saturday morning we woke up to watch the MSU football game. I should have stayed in bed. They lost (AGAIN) and the season is now shot to shit and I have no desire to watch any other games this season. Only MSU would start with 4-0 record and NOT be eligible for a Bowl game at the end of the season. Woohoo, way to go John L.

After the game my cousin took me out the Scottsdale. It is equivalent to Bloomfield Hills - the upper class part of town. We went to a couple of malls. It was nice because the weather was beautiful and the malls were not enclosed. Then we grabbed some dinner and got ready to head out for night #2. This time we went to a much better bar. It was like a club here at home. Good music, good atmosphere. I also enjoyed all the free drinks :) Again, I had several Yager bombs and some shots. I danced with one guy's girlfriend and had a good time. I talked to a cute boy (24 yr old Alabama boy) but there was no making out as I had initially hoped for. But I really didn't care. I was just hanging out. It was really nice to see my cousin. He won't be home until Christmas. And he is talking crazy- saying he wants to volunteer to go to Iraq. He doesn't feel like he is serving his country where he is right now. That darn military - brainwashing our youth!! I told him he can't serve his country if he's dead... Really, I guess I know why he feels that way, but I really don't want to wake up every morning knowing that I have family over there ; just waiting for bad news. Granted, he's not a pilot or a combat person, but over there, anything goes. They could make him do anything even if he isn't trained for it. That is scary to me. Anyway, I don't want to get on a soapbox about my feelings about the war. I just know I don't want my family to be over there.

I got home last night just in time for DH and GA. Good shows. It is now Monday and I am at work and it feels as though I never left. Well, I didn't really...

I read a about 500 pages of HP 4 over the weekend and should be done very soon so I can see the movie when it opens. It is definitely better than the first 3 - in my opinion.

Preview

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire - the movie - looks really good... Can I read book four between now and November 18? It will be hard since I do not have that book in my possession. But, I think I might know someone who might let me borrow it...

It's Not the 60s Anymore

Virgo August 23 - September 22
Monthly Love for November, 2005
Provided by Astrology.com

Sometimes you just can't get enough of love and romance. You are fascinated by other folks, and you love watching how human beings fall in and out of love. Which isn't to say that you fall in and out of love gratuitously, or even particularly often. It's just that you bring a natural curiosity to the process that makes the whole thing worthwhile, whether or not it works out. The 1st, 2nd and 3rd, you'll have lots to think about in the romantic arena. The 7th, get out your field guide to the wilds of romance -- you and a potential partner have spotted each other. The 13th, why don't you two romantic explorers go out to dinner somewhere off the beaten track? Then, by the 17th, do your best to communicate with your love interest in language they can understand (don't forget: It doesn't have to be verbal!). The 21st, you need to stay flexible, and the 25th, you two are having a ball together. The 29th, you look up and realize you've had a very interesting month!


Are they telling me I will meet someone on Monday and that I should have sex with that person just 10 days later??!! That is awfully presumptuous of them. What kind of girl do they think I am?

Not So Happy Halloween

Although this is typically my favorite holiday - it is not this year. There was no costume fun, no scary movie watching, no parties and worst of all, no date. The lonliness bug has caught up to me and that puts me in a bad/sad mood. I was watching Grey's Anatomy last night. It was a great episode but rather sad and it made me cry. Even after the show ended I was crying. And I couldn't stop. And I wasn't crying about the show anymore, I was just crying. Maybe it's the weather, yeah that's it, blame it on the weather. However, this seems to be going around as a couple of my friends have also had sad days lately. I have been doing my best to keep moving on and trying to be "happily" single, but I think that is a myth. How can one be happy if they don't have that one special person in their life to make them laugh and smile? I want that, I miss that. I'm sure this is a phase that will pass (quickly, I hope) but I can't help but feel lonely and sad. Maybe passing out candy tonight to little kids in adorable costumes will help lighten my mood. And hopefully my weekend trip to Phoenix will be a success. By success I mean a plethora of hottie Air Force boys (or MEN) to choose from and hopefully some random, meaningless kissing :-)

But for right now, I'll just eat a Halloween cupcake.

Medical Incredible

"Baby No Skin"

I'm watching this show and it really is incredible... A baby (two years ago) was born with no skin on the top of his head or around his abdomen. You could see his organs and they had to do a skin transplant, he is perfectly fine now, but how scary. To have a baby, and he is missing skin. Yikes!
Now they are talking about a guy with super elastic skin. It's yucky.
Next they will talk about a little girl who has to eat hamburgers and candy and junk food to survive, as well as a person with "werewolf syndrome". He has hair all over his face and looks like a werewolf...this condition actually is where the idea of 'werewolf' came from. Crazy stuff.

Anyway, my weekend was fairly uneventful. No Halloween fun for me. On Friday I went to the South Lake H.S. football game (they lost, it was first round of play-offs). Then we came home and ordered pizza bread. Pizza bread is really cheese bread with pepperoni on it and the sauce on the side. What's strange is that it is like $5 for that...but a pepperoni pizza would cost at least twice that, hmm? We watched Batman Begins then went to bed.

On Saturday morning we (whenever I say we it's usually Sarah and I, most of you probably know that already...) got up at the ass-crack of awn to drive to my brother's house to pick up my nephew, Jeffrey, for the MSU football game. We then drove to EL for the game. Tailgating was good and the game was fun since we had good weather and we finally won a game we were supposed to. We got home around 8:00 and we watched the UM football game until we fell asleep. I went to bed around 12:00.

Of course I forgot at first that the clocks fell back while I was sleeping, so when I got up at 10:30 I was really 9:30. I woke up in a bad mood for some reason. I started cleaning the house and picking up. We had glasses and newspaper and socks all over the house as well as a pile of dirty dishes in the sink. After cleaning, I made Halloween cupcakes and watched the Lions' game. Then I went to FJ to buy groceries. I was so proud of myself, I was a mini-Rachel Ray. I made turkey burger with seasoning and parm. cheese and smashed potatoes. With applesauce on the side it was a well rounded meal :)

Now I'm on the couch surrounded by sleeping puppies watching the Discovery Health channel. I'm disappointed because DH is a rerun tonight. I guess I'll have to watch a movie or something.

Puppy Love v2

More pictures of my baby:

Fashion

Glamorous Soul 62% Tastefulness, 46% Originality, 52% Deliberateness, 70% Sexiness

[Tasteful Original Deliberate Sexy] You choose your outfits carefully according to many criteria. You don't like looking cheap, dull or random and you go to great lengths to avoid this. You are successful, too. People admire your taste and sex appeal. Many try to imitate you but not many can recreate your unique style. Sometimes, however, they find you too intimidating to approach. If you don't wear retro style yet, perhaps you should consider it. It would become greatly your sexy, mysterious self. The opposite style from yours is Fashion Enemy [Flamboyant Conventional Random Prissy]. All the categories: Fashion Enemy Bar Cruiser Kid Next Door Sex Bomb Hippie Kid Fashion Rebel Fashion Artist Catwalk God(ess) Librarian Sporty Hottie Office Master Uptown Girl/ Boy Brainy Student Movie Star Fashionista Glamorous Soul

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 64% on Tastefulness You scored higher than 40% on Originality You scored higher than 48% on Deliberateness You scored higher than 97% on Sexiness

Link: The Fashion Style Test written by mari-e on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

It's Monday

Word of the Day for Sunday October 16, 2005
lackadaisical \lack-uh-DAY-zih-kuhl\, adjective:
Lacking spirit or liveliness; showing lack of interest;
languid; listless.

How strange. This is exactly what I was yesterday. Who knew the word of the day could be one's horosope? Really I was just resting because I feel like I'm getting sick. I'd like to get as much rest as possible to help fend off the flu germs. Wish me luck.

I love football season. There is nothing better than sitting on the couch all day watching game after game. I just wish my teams would actually win for a change.

Both Friday and Saturday I fell asleep on the couch and didn't go out. This makes me feel old. Well, I don't feel old because 29 isn't old, but when I stay home and don't go out becuase I'm tired from the weekend before, I feel like I am acting old. That's not good.


Virgo - Daily Love for October 17, 2005
Provided by Astrology.com

Daily Flirt: It's not like you're communing with the spirits on high or anything, but you've definitely got a better sense of where you stand -- and where you want to go. Strike out in a fresh direction.Daily
Daily Singles: Watch for a change in the romantic vibe right about now. Something (or someone) that had you all excited could have you in a more questioning mode. Find a way to put it into words, if just to a friend.


Quotes of the Day
Selected from Michael Moncur's Collection of Quotations - October 17, 2005

There are two types of people--those who come into a room and say, 'Well, here I am!' and those who come in and say, 'Ah, there you are.'
Frederick L Collins

To be pleased with one's limits is a wretched state.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe (1749 - 1832)

Rudeness is the weak man's imitation of strength.
Eric Hoffer (1902 - 1983)

He who praises you for what you lack wishes to take from you what you have.
Don Juan Manuel (1282 - 1349)

Ah, lunch time. Mmmmm.

Random Things

I was driving home from work today and saw a white Dodge Stratus decorated for Halloween. It had, what looked like, a leg hanging out of the trunk and fake blood around it like bloody fingerprints. It also had the word 'HELP' written in the fake blood. This I did not understand... How could "the person inside the trunk" write help on the outside of it??? Granted, I have never seen this before so thought it was creative, but still lacking in thought. As I passed the car, there was some old guy driving and it had a magnet on the side which advertised for a delivery company. Very strange.

This week at work I was offered an opportunity to go to South Carolina next week for three days. It would be to help transition 250+ employees to our company because of a big deal we just won. I was very excited but knew there would be an issue. Of course, I had to ask permission from my boss. This is never easy since she is very over-protective and annoying about me (and the work that I do). See, because I do work that no other admin does because it really isn't in the job description, there is nobody that I could ask to act as my back-up while I'm gone. Is this my fault? No. My manager has greater expectations and therefore I have no flexibility. This is one of things that has made me consider going back to school. When I get my transcript from HFCC, I plan to re-apply to MSU. I informed my manager of this as a courtesy during my review last week, but now she will use this against me. Why offer me opportunities to learn and experience things, like the SC thing, if I plan to quit in less then a year? Well, my way of thinking is, why stay if I cannot do things like SC because of reasons that are only selfish to my boss? It's really annoying. And how would I be able to take time off work if there is nobody suitable to take my place while I'm gone? I do not understand. So, I scheduled a meeting with her on Monday to discuss this. I might as well start training a back-up now...it would take me at least 6 months to train someone to do what I do! I know I should be flattered that she thinks so highly of the work I do, but I don't want to turn 40 and still be a glorified secretary. Granted, there's more to what I do than that, but my job title doesn't show that. I'm just an Administrative Assistant, big deal.

Tonight I watched Alias. It is was good, but I don't know if I will watch next season with no JG or MV. They were the main characters and without them the show is not going to be the same. But never say never I guess.

Sunday is my dad's birthday. 55. I am going to the cider mill Sunday morning to get cider and donuts because he loves them so. Happy Birthday Dad :)

My head suddenly itches, I feel like I have fleas... OH NO, not again. No, our dogs are finally clean from that mess, but my head still itches. Probably because I only wash my hair every other day.

Tomorrow is my breakfast day at work. Thank goodness for roommates that work at bagel shops and get you coupons for free stuff. Hip, hip, hoorah.

Well, off to bed. No book to read since I finally finished In Her Shoes. Now I need to see the movie. Nighty night.

The countdown...

59 minutes and counting until:

I get to shut down my PC and walk to my car. Spend 45 minutes in rush hour traffic driving home. Let the dogs out. Go to Target and Farmer Jack to buy necessities for the party on Saturday. Come home and clean the house. Welcome Anna when she arrives from Buffalo, NY around 9pm. Continue cleaning. Welcome Sarah home from Panera around 10:30pm. Sit around and talk about girl things and how fun the party is going to be. Go to bed. Wake up and go tanning and liquor store. Go home and eat lunch and watch some college football (MSU's bye-week, so hope UM loses to Minnesota). Last minute prep for party (cleaning, food prep, shower, get dressed, make-up, hair, etc.) Welcome our guests at 8pm. Drink, eat, converse. Jump up and down when the limo arrives at 10pm. All hop in the limo and head to Pontiac to bar hop and dance and drink and have fun until bars close at 2am. Get back in the limo to come home. Not go to White Castle because Ryan doesn't want to :) Get home and eat and pass-out (notice I left out vomiting since I hope nobody does that at this party). Wake up Sunday morning to make breakfast for all of our overnight guests. Clean the house and shower. Drag myself to my brother's house for a birthday party for my niece and two nephews. Come home from that and do laundry and watch TV and go to bed early. Damn, it's already Monday morning, how'd that happen?

Popular Primates

I'm bored, what can I say?

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If it weren't for the stupid internet, I wouldn't be half as in debt as I am today! I hate that I can sit on my butt and still spend money. I wish I didn't have my credit card number memorized; I wish I didn't have internet at work. I'd save a lot of money that way!!

I just won an auction on eBay for a Canon PowerShot SD200 digital camera. I am very excited because I've wanted a digital camera for a long time time, but when you go to the stores they only sell the newest, fanciest ones for $400. But you see, I don't need/want a 700 megapixel, 5000MB memory camera. The one I got is 3.2 megapixels and a 16MB SD memory card (which I might need to upgrade). I am very happy with my purchase and hope to have it for the limo extravaganza this Saturday, but I probably won't. I just hope there are plenty of other cameras to capture the shenanigans.

Anyone else watching the new TV show on Fox, Prison Break? I got sucked into it last week when my roommate was watching it and I had nothing else to do but watch it as well. Of course, it was part one of two so I had to watch last night to see the end. I like the show because it is intriguing to me, but it also bothers me. In the last two episodes there was a prison riot. A female doctor was trapped by crazy inmates trying to break into the room she was in so they could do bad, bad things to her. But she was saved by a good inmate (he got himself thrown into jail to help break his brother out {that is the main plot of the show}). I just watched the whole show shaking my head back & forth because I can't fathom how crazy people can be. Yes, this is a fictional show, but I know real prison riots have to be scary - crazy killers and rapists running free beating up innocent guards just because they can. On the show, there is one 'evil' guy (he's the one that leads the gang who preys on the young, new inmates for 'pleasure'). Well, he wanted to kill a guard but the other inmates said no. They let the guard go but the evil guy killed him anyway. I do not understand why the good inmates (good compared to other inmates, not normal people) never killed the evil guy. It was a freakin' riot, would who know (or care). I hope they kill him soon.

Anyway, I think that is all for now. I am at work and should be working. (Oh, I had my review today and it went really well. I finally feel like my boss likes me and really appreciates the work I do. She refered to me as her life-line...guess that's pretty good job security, eh? I just wish I still wasn't afraid to ask to work from home from time-to-time.)

Some things never change

MSU did not beat UM...again. It doesn't matter who is on our team or where we play or which team is ranked or which team isn't ranked or who has th better record... MSU has a mental handicap that will not allow them to beat UM in football. MSU was favored by 5 1/2 points the last I heard, but that along with all of the sporting "experts" picking MSU to win was a jinx. Too much pressure, too much confidence...whatever it was, it was sad. Both teams played a horrible game and neither deserved to win (I'm sure the UM fans would say differently of course). Missed field goals and bad defense is just no way to win a tough game like that. Typically I am one to say "There's always next year" - hahaha. No more, next year will be no different, it never is.

Aside from the final score, the weekend was a win in my book. I got to Lansing around 6:15 Friday evening. Went shopping for MSU gear for my nephews and niece, then went to Danielle's for dinner. Anna arrived from Buffalo then we headed out to get her some food, drove by the Sparty watch to give Johnny Spirit some food and went to Meijer for propane and beer. We watched Fraggle Rock then went to bed. Woke up at 5:41am to get ready for the tailgate. We parked our car at 7:20 or so. Unpacked the truck and began the party. We had a lot of people stop by we ate pancakes and sausage and drank Mimosas. By game time most of us were sufficiently buzzed. The game seemed long. After MSU lost, we headed back out to the car to drink our sorrow away. We headed back to Danielle's around 7:00. I came home since our puppies were home alone all day (they did have someone to let them out a couple times, but they were still lonely). I was so tired that I was asleep by 11:00 and slept straight until 9:30am.

Anyway, the tailgate was fun and it was great to hang out with everyone. It got me ready for next weekend. Saturday the 8th is our limo night. It's going to be most fantastic.

Well, I'm off to watch some TV and finish some laundry then watch Housewives and go to sleep. I'm getting a cold and need lots of rest so I'm at 100% for the party next weekend!!

Speechless

Well, I'm not entirely speechless. As I sit here listening to my sleeping puppy growl and bark (hope it's a good dream...) all I can think is:

damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn

I could keep going, but I'll spare you. I'm sure you're wndering why, but I cannot say. Just note the time and date of this blog as well as a previous blog of mine and some of you may understand. Some of you will eventually understand and the rest will never get it. Sorry.

DAMN

Seriously...

I found this while surfing the internet.
http://movies.yahoo.com/mv/news/eo/20050928/112796274000.html

My thought on this: GET OVER IT. IT'S A MOVIE!

Gosh, people are too touchy these days. It makes me mad. If I saw a movie where an Administrative Assistant plotted to take over the company or was really an assassin because they were heartless/'evil', I would not be offended by it. I'm sure there are 'evil' people in every job all over the world. Of the 80,000+ flight attendants in this world, do they really think all of them are sweet, loving human beings who wouldn't view a passenger as crazy if they were looking for a child that wasn't on the passenger list? I find that very hard to believe. People need to grow up and worry about more important things...we have millions of people in this country with no homes, no jobs and missing family...and they're protesting a movie. C'mon now, grow up.

Sorry Joey

Well, tonight is the premiere of Alias. I am very excited; however, I am also bummed at the same time. I was one of the loyal watchers of Joey until tonight (I know there weren't many). I know that show gets borderline ratings/reviews, but I was entertained by it. However, when faced with the conflict that I am, Alias is second to none. I'm interested in how the pregnancy will be written in...although if she still gets her butt kicked on a weekly basis I will be annoyed since pregnant women shouldn't be kickboxing bad guys, ya know? I will probably still watch even if she does though, because the show is just plain addicting. Tick, tock...is it 8:00 yet??

Sparty On

We are getting ready for the big game this Saturday so I felt like posting some pics from the first two home games. Enjoy!





GO STATE! :-)

Chip or Dale ?

You Are A: Chipmunk!

Everyone adores these cute woodland animals, known for the stripe that runs down their back. Famously timid, chipmunks will quickly scurry to the safety of their burrows if danger approaches. As a chipmunk, you eat mostly seeds and nuts, but you may sample bird eggs and insects from time to time.

You were almost a: Mouse or a Duckling
You are least like a: Turtle or a Bear CubCute Animals Test

Belated Birthday

Day 3 of my 29th year. I bet you wouldn't be surprised to hear I don't feel any different. I am optimistic, however, because my 28th year did not treat me so well. I am ready to start anew and be happy.

Thank you to all that wished me a Happy Birthday and to those of you who attended the 2 and 1/2 hour Red Lobster extravaganza :)

I had a great day and it makes me smile to know you are all in my life.

It's Talk Like A Pirate Day!

Ahoy - I almost forgot!!
http://www.talklikeapirate.com/piratehome.html

My pirate name is:

Calico Jenny Kidd

Often indecisive, you can't even choose a favorite color. You're apt to follow wherever the wind blows you, just like Calico Jack Rackham, your namesake. Even though you're not always the traditional swaggering gallant, your steadiness and planning make you a fine, reliable pirate. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.

Just because

Hello all. I really am only writing now because it has been awhile, but I really don't have anything to write about. It seems to have been a very boring week and I haven't even really had any deep thoughts lately. Aside from the flea attack at our house, I have been sitting at home either doing laundry or reading or watching football or sleeping or spending quality time with my puppy.

My birthday is tomorrow. I have to go to work and have meetings schedule until 7:00pm :( I am hoping that my manager will let me leave early and skip the meetings - that would be a very nice gift. Sarah is taking me to Red Lobster for dinner; I am very excited. I love RL and do not eat there very often and can't wait for the Ultimate Feast and Key Lime Pie - mmmm. Everyone is invited if you want to come - we'll be at the RL @ Hoover/10 Mile (I think) in Warren. Call me or Sarah if you want to join us and we'll confirm the time after I talk to my boss tomorrow morning. We may also go see Just Like Heaven after we eat.

On Friday we are going to Phil's wedding. It will be very strange because we haven't seen Phil in ages and we really haven't talked to him or even email. I think we made him feel obligated to invite us by drunk calling him and telling him he had too :)

The rest of my weekend is unknown. Possibly Tiki Saturday night, possibly a b-day party for another friend. Possibly Cedar Point on Sunday, possibly not.

Well, that's it for now. I'm off to surf the net because my boss is off today and I am bored.

Another Weekend

Friday was bar night. Sarah and I went to Teddy's and met up with one of her Panera friends. We had fun. Saturday was another MSU football day. We got to EL around 11:30. We listened to Michigan lose to Notre Dame and then watched our Spartans beat Hawaii. After the game we drove around looking for food as we were all starving. After eating, Sarah and I drove back home and went straight to bed because we were very sleepy. On Sunday I went shopping with my mom. I was excited because she bought me things. For my birthday I picked out a cool pair of shoes and a few tops from Express. My Sunday evening consisted of laundry, room cleaning and watching NFL football games.

On another note, those of you who are HP fans will be proud of me. I have picked up book 3 again and I'm actually reading it. I usually only get in one chapter a night because I stay up too late, but hey, one chapter at a time, right? And I have a list of other books I want to read so I need to take the next couple of weekends for relaxing and reading and enjoying the little bit of summer that we have left.

A Weekend of Friends

I was quite busy this past holiday weekend. It was full of friends and fun, see:

Thursday
My long weekend started when I got off work this day. I went home was lazy until we decided to go to the bar. That was a interesting decision since my ex was at the same bar. Talk about an enjoyable evening... I was glad when he and his new whatever left the bar and let me dance with my friends without having to see the car crash I call his new relationship.

Friday
Took Friday off to enjoy a nice long weekend. I tried to sleep in, but woke up early. But I then fell asleep on the couch for a couple more hours. Finally dragged my butt into the shower and then headed to the grocery store. Made goodies for the weekend (broccoli salad and pretzel-turtle candies). Went to hang out with friends; we played the Sex and the City trivia game and took silly quizzes online and drank some Boones Farm and ate chili cheese dip. It was a very fun evening.

Saturday
Woke up at 7am to drive to Lansing with Sarah (my roomie) for the first Michigan State football game this season. We arrived around 9:15 and tailgated with friends. We ate pancakes and killed annoying bees and drank. Anna drank a bit too much and left the game only minutes after it started (poor thing). MSU won 49 to 14 - yay. After the game we continued the tailgate by eating turkey/bacon wraps and veggies. Sarah and I got home around 7:30pm. I called our friend Beckie and after deliberation we decided to head to Novi to check out a bar called Tequila Rain. It was pretty cool but too crowded and the music was not consistent; however, I think I would give it a second chance. We met up there with Beckie's [boy]friend, Felipe and two of his friends from out of town. They had a bit too much to drink. After the bar we went to the hotel to ensure the drunks made it home safely. We then went to Dennys to get food. Then we went home. I spent the night with Beckie since she was house sitting and needed protection from the empty rooms upstairs :)

Sunday
I picked up Mike around 1:00 and we headed to the Renaissance Festival where we met Anna, Darcy, Danielle & Dave and Josh & Elaine. I had not been to the festival in many, many years so it was fun. The food was very yummy and the parking was free. We didn't see the jousting but Mike and I did see the Washing Wenches show, it was quite funny. We said hello to Tess who is working there this year. We left around 5:30. When I arrived home Sarah was making macaroni and cheese - the yummy, baked kind. I guess it was really good - I just now realized I never had any...! We then went to a housewarming party for Beckii and Mike. They have a very nice house. We played cards and watched other party-goers do keg stands. We got home around 1:30 and went to sleep.

Monday
I went shopping with my mom. I spent money that I don't have - I bought tennis shoes which I needed and a cute dress which I didn't. Then at my mom and dad's house I read a little bit and we ate Chicken Paprikás (a yummy, Hungarian Chicken and Dumpling dish - a family favorite). I went home and did some work while watching Friends on TBS.

That was my Labor Day Weekend 2005.

Gone

Kelly Clarkston > Breakaway > Track 5: Gone

What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there

Your eyes they sparkled
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care
You know you did it

I'm gone
To find someone to live for in this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You are wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you

Always ending, always over
Back and forth, up and down, like a roller coaster
I am breaking that habit today
You know you did it

There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it babe
Take the hit and walk away
Cause I'm gone

Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone

What you see's not what you get

Hmmm

You Belong in New York City

You are an energetic, ambitious woman.
And only NYC is fast enough for you.
Maybe you'll set yourself up with a killer career
Or simply take in all the city has to offer


What City Do You Belong in?

My College Years

Due to a very strange dream I had a couple nights ago that involved my nemesis from college - I have been thinking about those four years and decided to tell my story for those of you who have never heard it. Ready?

Year 1
My first few weeks at MSU were spent in dorm room with two roommates that I did not know. I can't recall where they were from, but they were a little more on the snooty side. I did think they were nice at first, but after a few days we had decided that I would move out into another room because we were provided the option. Unfortunately, I could not move out right away so I was stuck there for a few more days. During these days, the "nice" girls turned on me and suddenly treated me as an outcast. One day I come home from class and they had started packing my things already! Needless to say, when I moved out I was relieved.
I was lucky enough to get a room with a roommate who was never there. The only thing she had in the room was a hairpiece in her desk (which scared me when I found it). She didn't have any clothes there because she lived with her boyfriend in another dorm. It was wonderful to have my own space and not have to pay for it. During the weeks to come I ended up spending a lot of time with a girl I had graduated high school with (Lisa). She hated her roomie situation as well. So at the end of the first semester when my roommate officially moved into her boyfriend's dorm, Lisa moved in with me. Everything was ok at first, but half way through the semester something happened. I became friends with girls on my floor who apparently were not friends with another girl on our floor (Bobbi). Bobbi and Lisa had become friends and they shunned me for hanging with the other girls. Although they remained somewhat friendly to me for the rest of the year, it was awkward. When we discussed the living arrangement for the next year, Bobbi and Lisa decided to live together and I was once again on my own.

Year 2
I had a new roommate who was a freshman, I forget her name even though she was a good roommate. She was from Grosse Ile and she hung out with her friends a lot and wasn't home much. I was good friends with the same girls as the year before with Bobbi and Lisa as my neighbors. We never spoke. Year 2 was a fun year. I had finally found good friends, we partied and played cards. We hung out with the guys on our brother floor a lot also. I had a big crush (Ron). He was a great guy, nice and funny. I didn't make a move but he knew I liked him. We just were always friends. I had a crush of my own, my friend Chris asked me out, but I didn't feel that way so we just stayed friends. During year 2 I got a job working at the various parking lots as a booth attendant. It was a good job being able to study during the late shifts. The only draw back was my ex from high school (Tim) happened to work as a "team leader". We really didn't have any hard feeling against each other, that again, was just another awkward situation. At the end of year 2 I had convinced my parents to let me move off campus. I signed to live in a house with 8 other people. I had no idea what I was getting myself into :)

Year 3
Our house was perfect. 6 bedrooms, four kitchens, 4 bathrooms. I lived upstairs in a room with Lora. We had our own mini-apartment with one of the kitchens and a bathroom. Across the hall lived Ron (yes, my crush) and Stephanie. On the main floor was Chris, Scott and Julie. In the basement Dan and his girlfriend, Roz. We all got along very well. We had several parties. This was the year that I got Lora a job working as a booth attendant as well. Chris still had a crush on me, and I was teased by my other roomies because I did get special treatment even though I never asked for anything. Since Dan and Roz wanted their own place and Julie and Chris were getting different arrangements, Lora, Ron, Scott and myself got a different house for year 4.

Year 4
This year started out ok. But about half way through the first semester things took a turn for the worst. Lora had a cousin who liked me. He was nice, but I liked this other guy from work. One night we had a party and Lora's cousin was there, but I ended up leaving the party to go be with the guy I liked. Apparently, that was totally unacceptable and I was instantly branded as a bitch by Lora. She made my life a living hell. Since she worked with the same people I did, she would tell untrue stories about me behind my back and make people loathe me without ever even meeting me. She also got in good with my ex from high school who then also decided it would be fun to smear my reputation for no reason at all. It was the worst year of my life, every weekend I would drive home so I didn't have to be in that house. Even my other roommates would ignore me if Lora was in the room. They never stood up for me and that hurt really bad too. To this day I have no clue what I did to deserve the horrible treatment...I find it hard to believe that not liking someone as more then a friend is such a horrible, bitchy thing.

Needless to say I do not talk to anybody I went to college with. I did talk to Ron once about a year later, but we did not keep in touch. Never saw Scott or Lora again. But strangely, she was the one in my dream the other night. She is the one person I can say I hate. Hate is a strong word and I do not use it lightly - but for her I mean it (oh, and Tim too, he's an ass). I would probably even run them over if I ever saw them again...well, not really, but the thought would enter cross my mind.

So, the only thing I learned in college - people can be evil. That is probably why my list of friends is small. It is very hard to find truly honest/kind/caring people. I thank all of you that care about me and support me.

Hangovers Are Bad

Thursday night Tap Room was fun. Even though my arm hurt for two days from playing darts.

Friday I didn't have to work. I got up at 9:00 and finished packing and headed to the airport. Flew to Minneapolis to visit Jess (best friend from high school). We ate lunch at Red Lobster and she took me on a tour of her office (Best Buy headquarters). Not sure why, but it's always cool to see where your friends work. Then we went to the movies to see The 40 Year Old Virgin. It was quite funny if you want my opinion.

Saturday we went to the Minnesota Zoo. We saw many cute animals. The prairie dogs were my favorite. They are really just large hamsters, but they we doing this cute "jump and yip" that we thought was adorable. I don't think it was a mating call because it seemed random and they'd just run around and stop and do this thing. Anyway, on our way home we bought groceries for dinner. We watched Garden State and ate taco salad and rice krispy treats.

Sunday I had to head to the airport to come home. My flight was listed as on-time online, but that changed when I got there. The NWA strike is really annoying. My flight ended up being 1 1/2 hours delayed waiting for maintenance to give their OK. My parents picked me up when I landed and we went to my brother's for dinner. I got home at 8:00. All day I was in the mood to go dancing so when Devin came home and said they wanted go to the bar I was all for it. We talked Sarah into coming with us even though she was tired. Darren also went and we met a few of his friends at Wild Woody's. I went with the intention of dancing not drinking, but somehow my plan did not work. I ended up very drunk and ended up vomiting in every trash can in our house. Sarah and I even shared the bathroom because we both had to make ourselves sick. Needless to say it was a rough night and I did not go to work today. I was able to roll out of bed at 12:30 but not able to eat food until 5:30. I am still tired and should go to bed early tonight, but I still need to shower.

I plan to take easy this weekend. No drinking at the wedding on Friday and no drinking at my friend's housewarming party Saturday. I'm too old for that crap.

Puppy Love

Here's my baby, isn't he cute?

Louie.

The cutest Italian Greyhound on the planet!!

Swedish Anyone?

No, I didn't forget the word meatballs. I cannot seem to find a good Swedish to English translator online. Any help with this is appreciated. I need to know what the following note says (I can guess it has something to do with an address):

Subject: FW: medlemstidning

Hej Jackie!

Vi är på väg och skicka ut medlemstidningen Servicetalk till dig, men saknar adress. Kan du ge mig en adress så kan jag skicka den till dig.

Med vänliga hälsningar

Marcus Aveholt
itSMF Sweden

Procrastination

I don't want to work anymore. I'm tired and bored and have things to do but I just don't want to. So I starting thinking about things I could do after work. Not just tonight, but something that could help occupy my time, a hobby. I hate the gym, well hate is a strong word. I'm not a big fan of the gym. I know it is good for you, but I just don't like to go. I do enjoy working out once I get there though. Does that make any sense? Anyway, I thought about going back to school, but that's a whole other thought battle. Aside from it being too late to go back for this semester, I have no idea where I would go, what I would go for or how I would afford it. There's always the business avenue, how dull would that be? Then I always think about going back into Surgical Technology. Or maybe for Radiology. But those programs have strict schedules and I could not work full-time and do that. That is my dilemma. Anyway, back to the subject at hand. What do I do with myself after work? What other classes could I take that are not necessarily part of a specific program. Perhaps another language. I started French, but never really learned it, maybe now is my chance. Or maybe Italian or Spanish or all of them. Ooh, how about sign language, I've always wanted to learn that and I already know the alphabet... Do I need to go to a community college for something like that? How much would it cost? These are the things that bring me down. Why does everything have to cost money? Is nothing in this world free anymore (besides my plane ticket to MN after 12 years of saving airline miles)? Does anybody else have any cool clubs or groups to recommend? I'm getting tired of sitting on my couch every night. I've already watched every season of Sex and the City over again. What's next?

Yours truly,
Lonely and bored

Memories

I'm sitting in bed looking at pictures from my trip to Europe (less then a year ago). So many memories packed into just three weeks of my life. Whenever I feel sad, I just have to look at these pics and remember the good things in life:

• Pistachio gelato
• Trevi Fountain (I threw my coin in...just waiting for my return to Rome)
• The Sistine Chapel
• My 28th b-day (bar run in Rome...no scarpa, grazie)
• The Leaning Tower of Pisa
• The David
• My future wedding ring (can be found on the Ponte Vecchio in Florence)
• Venice (all of it)
• Cinderella's castle (aka Neuschwanstein)
• U.S. Air Force Dentists
• After visiting a concentration camp...knowing that evil never wins
• The Eiffel Tower (at night)
• Moulin Rouge
• And never last, the friends you make memories with

I highly recommend Italy. It was the best. I loved the food and the people and the sights and the weather. If I won the lottery tomorrow (which reminds me, I have to buy my ticket) I would go in a heartbeat and take all my friends and family with me. Even my dad, whose idea of ruins can be found by touring Downtown Detroit.

But for now, I will settle for good, ol' Minneapolis. I know I won't find anything there as old as the Colosseum, but hey, a best friend and the Mall of America are reasons enough for me.

Slyders

What is in a White Castle? They would say it's 100% beef, but is it really? I have searched and found several websites that describe the history of the greasy burgers, aka slyders, as well as a couple recipes in the event you'd like to make them in the comfort of your own home.

http://www.foodreference.com/html/fwhitecastle.html
http://www.cooks.com/rec/doc/0,1726,149170-242196,00.html
http://www.batemania.com/recipes/061200.html
http://www.whitecastle.com/_pages/secret.asp

Enjoy!

Spin-off

I am writing this as a spin-off to a recent post by my friend, Ryan. He spoke of things that I have been thinking for quite some time now. Why are relationships so hard? Why do we prevent ourselves from being happy? My thoughts are due to my recent break-up, which was followed by meeting someone else that I thought could help me be happy for a change. But this new person is so messed up and afraid of relationships that he's not even allowing for the possibility of a good thing. "He doesn't want to get hurt"...well, no kidding. Does he think I do? I am just picking up the pieces from having my heart broken; does he think I want to be hurt all over again so soon? Maybe that is a good reason for me to not see someone right away - I need to give myself time to heal and remember what it is that I want out of life. But then I can't help but think that is just an excuse to not move on. We are only getting older. Life is all about chances, what good is it if we don't take any? And the older we get, I feel there will be less chances for us to be able to take. You only live once, and that one lifetime should be full of risks which I feel ultimately would lead to happiness. No more excuses.

somniferous: Dictionary.com Word of the Day

I signed up to receive the word of the day over a year ago, and I have never made an attempt to actually use them. Feel free to try it as well.

Word of the Day for Monday August 8, 2005
somniferous \som-NIF-uhr-uhs\, adjective:
Causing or inducing sleep.

Somniferous comes from Latin somnifer, "sleep-bringing," from
somnus, "sleep" + ferre, "to bring."

Since I never paid attention to the somniferous lectures in my accounting classes, I find the financial reports I must complete during work are quite difficult.

Decisions, Decisions

How hard can it be to make a simple decision? Apparently very hard for my manager. I had to spend 2 and 1/2 hours on the phone with our corporate travel agency trying to find her flight home from London. How many choices did she have?? TWO - flight A or flight B. And the flights times were only one hour apart. Seriously, does it take 2 hours to just pick one?? Obviously because she still has not confirmed! She is on a waitlist for a sold-out flight instead and I still have to call travel again later today... These are the days that I just do not understand my job and wonder if there is a better purpose in life for me. I really don't think I can book travel for someone else for the next 20 years of my life. Gotta go, the phone is ringing...oh joy.

Man Thongs

Male strippers - hot or not? Well, that depends. Those who who bare it all - not. Leave a little to the imagination please. This thought is in light of a recent bachelorette party. Three strippers in all - one cute, one so-so and one had very beautiful eyes. But once the man thong came off, the only distraction was the flip-flopping of his man part. Even more disturbing was the making out. Why would one kiss a naked stranger...merely because he is good-looking? Not a good enough reason for me. I did find myself slightly jealous for about 30 seconds, but I think that was just the alochol. I then felt creepy-crawlies all over my skin and couldn't watch anymore. Maybe I'm a prude. I have been accused of that before. But I don't think so. I enjoy the occassional hot man lap dance...but please don't lose the thong.

There's No Crying ....

How does one pick up the pieces and move on? 2 and 1/2 years of emotional trauma, a bad relationship that everyone tells you is wrong and your logical side agrees, but you hold on, never letting go, unable to let go. Now it is finally over and you are still unable to let go, move on. Although, it doesn't make it any easier knowing they are happy without you. They have moved on, and there you sit on the couch, alone every night watching Sex and the City with your dog. But what else is there to do? Every where you turn is a dead end, no where no meet a new person, the rebound person, that desperately needed rebound person. There's that word...Desperate. How did this happen to you? Thought you were strong, thought this would never happen to you, always telling other people how to be strong and then not being able to do it yourself. Then there's the good friends - "It's not you" "You deserve better". Do you? You'd like to think so but everything is makes you feel otherwise. Do you change something - get a new job...move...? What will make it easier, anything? "Give it time" they say...how much time? Why can't we wake up and use our logic to convince our heart to let go and move on? Why be granted the ability to rationalize if you can't really put it to good use.
This is the rambling of a recently single 29-year-old who knows better. I'm smart and know good things come to those who wait...but I don't want to. Damn it, I'm selfish. And yes, I do deserve better.

First Timer

I am new to this blog world. I'm not sure what I plan to accomplish with this as I don't think I'm as interesting as I used to be. I guess ending a long, emotionally draining relationship can do that to a person...